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Slice of Me
May. 9th, 2004 04:48 pmI am an addictive personality. I know this. I am contact addicted, social interaction addicted, emotional intimacy addicted, caffeine addicted, carmel colouring addicted, chocolate addicted, book addicted, and mental stimulation addicted. My addiction to the Internet is actually a conglameration of several of the above addictions.
I can manage a day without Coke (the soda!), and then I start to get irritable, anxious, and bitchy. By day two, I start having headaches. By day three, the headaches are migraines, and I'm ready to kill anything that's daring to breathe within a mile of me. Chocolate releases the same chemical into your system that orgasm does, so love-making usually takes the place of chocolate consumption. It also feeds my various emotional addictions, as well as being healthier for me than large amounts of chocolate.
Mental stimulation is fed by books, social interaction, games that require constant thought and attention,(I have been known to play SimCity 2K at Cheetah speed, just for the mental challenge of keeping up with the game. No pausing, and disasters were left on.) puzzles, anything that keeps my mind occupied. Mental inactivity drives me absolutely fucking nuts. I get antsy after prolonged bouts of menial, mindless labour, and will drive those around me insane by trying to carry on conversations with them. Without letting my mouth slow down my thought process. I am told that I talk insanely fast when I forget to hobble my vocal chords. I will also start to poke into anything and everything around me if my mind is not kept sufficiently occupied. For those of you who know the GURPS system, I have the Curious disadvantage at -20. And every GM in the house who has GMed GURPS agrees with that statement.
Social interaction. This is fed by the Internet and my family. I get antsy and lonely after a day of being alone, and am actively a nervous wreck after two days of little or no interaction and/or physical contact. I am damn near unable to function if I do not have people to talk with on a daily basis. I am a social creature, and am most comfortable when my all my family is at home. I am also highly touch-oriented. See also: Cuddle-slut. I have to actively remember that most people do not consider casual touch to be an acceptable part of standard communication. Luckily for me, most of family is also highly touch-oriented. Most anyone else would consider me to be annoyingly clingy. I just have a different standard for acceptable levels of public affection than most of the society that I live in does.
Reading. I think that I would literally go insane if I had to spend a week not being allowed to read anything at all. I love the way books smell. I love the sound of paper pages rustling. I was reading by the time I was 4, and I was reading at full adult level by the time I was 6. Every teacher I have ever had in the U.S. started out amazed by my proficiency, and rapidly progressed to annoyance at the fact that I literally would not stop reading for anything. Including class. They ignored the fact that I consistently passed every test I had, often surpassing my classmates.
I honestly don't think I'm suited to be anything other than a professional student or a librarian. At least not in a professional capacity.
I can manage a day without Coke (the soda!), and then I start to get irritable, anxious, and bitchy. By day two, I start having headaches. By day three, the headaches are migraines, and I'm ready to kill anything that's daring to breathe within a mile of me. Chocolate releases the same chemical into your system that orgasm does, so love-making usually takes the place of chocolate consumption. It also feeds my various emotional addictions, as well as being healthier for me than large amounts of chocolate.
Mental stimulation is fed by books, social interaction, games that require constant thought and attention,(I have been known to play SimCity 2K at Cheetah speed, just for the mental challenge of keeping up with the game. No pausing, and disasters were left on.) puzzles, anything that keeps my mind occupied. Mental inactivity drives me absolutely fucking nuts. I get antsy after prolonged bouts of menial, mindless labour, and will drive those around me insane by trying to carry on conversations with them. Without letting my mouth slow down my thought process. I am told that I talk insanely fast when I forget to hobble my vocal chords. I will also start to poke into anything and everything around me if my mind is not kept sufficiently occupied. For those of you who know the GURPS system, I have the Curious disadvantage at -20. And every GM in the house who has GMed GURPS agrees with that statement.
Social interaction. This is fed by the Internet and my family. I get antsy and lonely after a day of being alone, and am actively a nervous wreck after two days of little or no interaction and/or physical contact. I am damn near unable to function if I do not have people to talk with on a daily basis. I am a social creature, and am most comfortable when my all my family is at home. I am also highly touch-oriented. See also: Cuddle-slut. I have to actively remember that most people do not consider casual touch to be an acceptable part of standard communication. Luckily for me, most of family is also highly touch-oriented. Most anyone else would consider me to be annoyingly clingy. I just have a different standard for acceptable levels of public affection than most of the society that I live in does.
Reading. I think that I would literally go insane if I had to spend a week not being allowed to read anything at all. I love the way books smell. I love the sound of paper pages rustling. I was reading by the time I was 4, and I was reading at full adult level by the time I was 6. Every teacher I have ever had in the U.S. started out amazed by my proficiency, and rapidly progressed to annoyance at the fact that I literally would not stop reading for anything. Including class. They ignored the fact that I consistently passed every test I had, often surpassing my classmates.
I honestly don't think I'm suited to be anything other than a professional student or a librarian. At least not in a professional capacity.
