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I feel I ought to be updating more often, but I have no idea where or when to start on what's been going on.

For those who were not aware of it, louisadkins and I have started a relationship. It started as a 'friends with benifits' thing. It has the very strong potential to become a helluva lot more, which surprised the daylights out of both of us. I was not expecting to fall in love again. I would, however, like to get past the NRE now, if the universe doesn't mind.

catchild has been diagnosed with carpal tunnel. Her right wrist is in a brace for at least the next two weeks. She will not be using the arm for that period of time. This is not making the very hands-on woman happy.

Bear-cub is at 4-H camp, where she will be for this week. Puppy is going to a sleepover tonight. This will hopefully help diminish her upsetedness over not getting to go to camp with her big sister. Phooka is starting to learn about the potty. She already knows the word, and will call out "Potty, potty" when her diaper needs changing.

Kali has gotten spayed. (The cat not the deity! Do I look like I'd try and spay Kali Ma/Durga?) One of her kittens has gone to her new home. warinbear will be keeping another. This makes three kittens who need good homes.

And my ability to concentrate just ran out. I'm going to get more caffeine.

Pardon me, lemming coming through

Speaking of lemmings, anyone know where to find a copy of the game by the same name?



Ki-lin

A mythical being of Chinese mythology, comparable
with the western unicorn. Ki-lin personifies
all that is good, pure, and peaceful. It lives
in paradise and only visits the world at the
birth of a wise philosopher. The Ki-Lin is
said to walk on earth and on water. It never
drinks or eats dirty food or water. The Chinese
unicorn never treads on smaller animals below
its feet nor does it ever harm another living
creature. The Ki-Lin is the emblem for
exquisite goodness, longevity, grandeur,
endless compassion and great wisdom. According
to Chinese mythology, at the birth of Confucius
a Ki-Lin appeared and Confucius died soon after
a Ki-Lin was killed, he believed that his
writings would not proceed from the omen of the
death of the Unicorn.


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Damnitall, ASK FOR HELP ALREADY!!!!

Right, then.

I am not a telepath. I wish to make this as clear as I can possibly make it. I cannot read your mind; if you give me no information I can only guess at what you want done and how you want it to be done, and when.

If you have problems asking, then I'm really sorry, but you're just going to have to ask. I cannot anticipate or guess everything, and trying is using up an incredible amount of my resources. Knock on the door, or tap me on the shoulder, or use fucking flags for all I care, but if you don't ask me for help, then you don't get to get all pissed at me when I had no idea that my help was needed.

I cleaned the kitchen and living room today. I helped watch and take care of the Phooka. I ran dishes and laundry. I worked my ass off. If that's not enough, then I'm sorry, but the rest of ya'll can fucking grow up and godsdamn deal with it. I'll do my best to help, but you can damn well ask for my help instead of hope that I'll notice you need it.

I have just about run out of cope on this front. I am frustrated to the point of tears, sick to my stomach, and I find myself wanting to rock and scream and open my arms to the bone. And I will personally bitch at any and all who mouse about this, because that reaction is just making this worse. It's already been rubbed in enough that there's no way I can do enough, or be enough, or be good enough to help anyone. You don't need to shove my face in it any more than it already has been. I do my best, and if that's not enough, well, there's more to give but I refuse to cut up little pieces of my soul for your convienince.

catchild if you start trying to do housework or stuff that uses your right arm before it's healed, well you can officially add that to the list of things that will make this reaction worse. You not taking proper care of yourself is not acceptable. It also puts Ebon in a downright vicious mood, and I'm all but ready to hit his nose with a newspaper until he starts being in a better mood.

Since the last time I hit a depressive spiral like this, the general reaction was that I could 'just get over it', 'not think about it', 'just change how you feel', then that's what the whole fucking lot of you can damn well start doing. I love you all very, very much. I'm not leaving unless and until you kick me out, and you're going to have to fight me to do that.

I can still get pissed off at how you're acting, and more to the point, about how you're treating me.